Good for nothing

I read this book by Neil T Anderson in 2011: Who I Am in Christ.

It was refreshing, to say the least. It made me understand that I Am is my Father and thus I am good enough-all the time.

It hurt a lot, also because it came at a bad time as I was dealing with a number of uncertainties plus the uncomfortable situation I chose to live under at home. It started off on my prompting as I was bitching about something and somebody else and the reasons they were pissing me off. All that I was trying to do was vent and maybe get someone on my side and put the person under check. Alas! it was not to be so as there was a full U-Turn that seemed to be targeted at me.

In summary, I found out that I was basically a ne'er do well in their opinion. And it hurt. For days onward I couldn't snap out of the implication of me being a ne'er do well and worse, just finding it out, just confirming it. I actually agreed with the person to a certain extent and that, my friends, made it worse. It kinda resonated with what a lot of people I have met and worked with have said explicitly or by inference. It hurt menh especially coming from close quarters.

So I sulked and withdrew and doubted and accepted that as a fact and snapped at anyone and everyone...I carried it around for days and it made everything else I had been dealing with magnify in comparison to what they were before. I kept wondering what I'd been up to all these years and how come all my 'good intentions' were summarily dismissed as useless - and menh! have I been struggling?

Then I remembered 'who I am in Christ'. And all I can say is: I am good enough all the time! I hope I don't let anyone convince me different ever!